Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Our baby... girl?

So it's taken me a little while to update this, but I've been a little but lazy :p And since I am still am a little lazy, I'm just going to copy and paste my post from MDC from when we found out that our little boy, was in fact, a girl!

I had my pp check with my midwife today. The good news is that all the bazillion tests they ran on me showed nothing. The baby's tests also showed nothing. It appears that maybe the placenta did not develop normally, as it was seemingly intact at delivery but I ended up with a d&c 2 weeks later and there was still A LOT of it in there. *shrug* We'll never know for sure, but I'm ok with not having a solid answer. I'm pretty confident that it was just one of those things, so I'm not going to drive myself crazy wondering. It is what it is and I'm at peace with it.

Now the really weird and unexpected part. This just made my head spin a little... Pathology showed that the baby was a girl! Did not see that one coming at all! There was what appeared to be a tiny penis on the baby, everyone thought it was a boy, so we named "him" and I formed a "relationship" connection, whatever you want to call it, with my little boy after the loss. Now come to find out he was a she so I'm feeling a little weird about that. It doesn't really change much I guess, but for the past 6+ weeks I've had the idea of my son in my head so yeah... it's strange now. I can't even really explain it. We're going to keep the name, because it belongs to our baby now regrardless... we'll just be super cutting edge and our little girl will have a new unisex name But anyway, it's been an odd one to say the least.

On a side note... It's funny, because my son talked about his little sister when I was pregnant with her, and then continued to do so even after we had the baby and told him the baby was a boy. He knew all along.